((((EV))))
It sounds perhaps you are becoming aware of all the different parts of you and that you wish T to know them all....I had this happen recently too and it can be very frightening but my T said it's conventional wisdom currently that we all have different parts of ourselves. Of course, some parts may need integration and that will happen in time.
You are a good person. We all have a shadow side. It's okay EV, it's ok!
(((((HUGS)))))