Hey. It is a little controversial... But I guess I think that 'supportive' and 'exploratory' are on a continuum. Stuff happens in our life outside therapy. Sometimes we are in a fairly good place and we have the internal strength to do some exploratory work. Othertimes things are harder and we need some support so we can keep on functioning doing the things that we need to do. I think that where we are at changes over time and ideally therapy changes with us as we need it to so that it can be more or less supportive and more or less exploratory.

I guess I was doing some good exploratory work with my therapist but then deadlines got closer. Recently, I've been struggling just to do what it is that I need to do. So now we are doing more of a supportive thing. Sometimes he makes some practical suggestions and sometimes he just is supportive and nurturing and it helps me feel like I have a bit more inner strength to be doing what it is that I need to do.

I'm ashamed of the little kid feelings too :-( Because I've disowned them for so long they are still in a little kid form. They haven't had the chance to evolve and develop into an adult form. Sometimes I feel... Like I am a little infant and I just wish that t could cuddle me and coo at me and do soothing stuff like that. I just want to cry and curl up in a little ball and have someone wrap themself around me and stroke my hair and soothe me. And... I'm embarrassed and ashamed that I feel that way to be sure :-( But... Feel that way, I do.