Yeah paranoia is so hard. So sorry you're going through this. I got so paranoid once on here that I closed my account. It's horrible. I ended up in the hospital that time.

I think you may need a stronger ap. You still sound reasonable so I don't think they'll hospitalize you. One thing I've learned through this whole process is to have a good strong ap on hand to take as a prn just in case I get really paranoid. For me that's zyprexa. Now I haven't needed the hospital in 2 yrs.

Maybe ask for a prn....

I hope you feel better soon.