I was watching one of these docummentaries driven by Morgan Freeman. It was about the after life and suddenly this sentence comes to my mind "Noone will talk about us when we die".
Yes, I know it. I'm all chatastrophic lately. I barely can't stand to be with myself.
So, my apologizes.

I was never worried about that before. It was the last aspect I would have worried about my avoidance. I was foccus on now and here, also the past with an attempt to try to answer my questions about why.

I know about some avoidants who have children. A few ones. But, I think it's not very usual. Thinking about my limited social net and my lack of strength to enlarge it or set stronger bonds with the ones I have I don't believe I will gonna be recalled by anyone or mean the difference for anyone.

I remember one of my teachers at Secondary school told us one time. " Guys, the last thing a person can do is being unnoticed". Now, I know what she wanted to mean. She was talking about being a fighter for the things you care. But, my god, this remark hurt me so much. I told to myself "hey, I agree with it but how I can do it, being like this. It's easy to say it but I can't".
It's not all about intentions. I'm full of good intentions. I would let me die to deffend a friend. But, you can be all full of good intentions and ideas but don't dare to give a step to put them into practice.