I was seeing a psychologist for extra support when T was away. And she's up to speed on everything so I will be able to continue with her after he finishes up at that practice. I'm going to miss him so much though. I really learnt a lot from him as he is a medical doctor as well and does a lot of research and was happy to talk about latest studies etc. it's a bit different to psychology which only focuses on behaviour. Psychiatry has the medical link between the brain and the body and a lot of psychosomatic symptoms and biological markers. And that the meds might actually protect my body from the side effects of depression and stress like heart disease, obesity, diabetes, etc.
I guess my relationship with him was different because he reminded me so much of my father and brother and I had to keep reminding myself that he was not them and actually helpful. I had to fight to stay in my chair sometimes and I had terrible anxiety sometimes.