I found out my T isn´t honest with me when it comes to treating me like a person - it´s only therapy technique!

We had an evaluation meeting and as I was personally orientated when I talked about how I felt about therapy and her, my T was only process orientated. She didn´t say anything positive about me as a person or that she felt it will be nice continue working together or something like that.

I´ve been in therapy for about 10 months now and for at least 8 months we have had a certain way of ending the session, by shaking hands and I usually say thanks as we shake hands.

Last session she forgot! She headed for the door as was her original routine and she then realized she had missed our handshake and she went back to me and we shook hands.

Now, I realize the personal things around therapy like saying hello, ending sessions and so on isn´t important to her. I´m only her working material and I can also notice that by the fact it´s always me who says "hello" first when she picks me up in the waiting area, she never initiates a "hello".

If it had been important to her and if she thought it would be nice seeing me, of course you spontaneously sometimes say hello first. And the biggest "evidence" is of course that she forgot the handshake as it´s something she does only technically, it´s not that she thinks she wants to show she cares or wants me to feel it´s a nice ending to our session.

I also know some T:s are really genuine and have a routine for starting and ending sessions to make the client feel welcome and by that I also see my T is only doing this by technique, no heart!

I don´t know how to handle this besides acting more low-key next time, not saying "hello" in the waiting area and so on. Even if that will be very obvious I also think of just leaving at the end of the session, not wait for the handshake but just open the door and leave. I don´t feel it´s something to discuss as she actually shows what she really thinks every time, it´s only me who thought or wanted to believe it was genuine.