(((((((((((((((( Kezzie )))))))))))))))

I know exactly what you are going through and feeling. I too had a deep high school romance with a man and we were out of touch for 30 years or so. We have been chatting again and even met up 2 years ago.

I can say that before meeting him again, I had dreams of how it used to be and what it could be now, regardless of the fact that we are both married etc. It's ok to think about what could have been....but I can say this, after our meeting face to face after so many years, I realized that what we had was wonderful at the time...but would never have withstood the years of adulthood. We broke up for a reason .....because it wasn't meant to be! That's not to say that folks don't meet up after many years to find out they are still the ones for each other....but many times it doesn't work out that way.

I'm glad we had the chance to see each other face to face. It put everything into perspective for me. I realized just how much I loved my husband and how I would never put our relationship in jeopardy. I realized that my ex b/f grew in a different direction from me.....we would never be able to recapture what we once had because it wasn't meant to be anything more than a young love...a basis to grow on.

That's my experience for what it's worth. I care about this guy as a friend and nothing more. Even though he wants more (he's newly seperated from his wife), I will never go down that road. I have too much to loose if I do.

Wishing you well!

Hugsss
sabby