I don't think you'll get in trouble for this post. Yours is a poem that speaks from a dark place in your heart... What is restricted is where a person speaks out on specific intentions to go through with it RIGHT NOW, and are in a crisis place where we on the forums can't help anymore. And that's only restricted because we're all separated by the internet and can't get that person the emergency help they need.

What I heard in that poem was a cry for help though. Yours is heard, even if I can't help directly. <3