Had my individual therapy session yesterday since my therapist won't be there tomorrow. Wrote one of the letters and gave it to the intended recipient yesterday with my therapist in the room, let's just say the recipient is also a therapist (my old case manager), well I had a freak out Infront of both of them, had to have him read the letter to himself cause I lost the ability to speak. I hate confronting people, had bad experiences with it. Idk what I'm going to do when I have to confront my current case manager, especially w/o my therapist there with me, if I freak out couldnt speak and was on the floor yesterday, then I'm going to just give my case manager her letter and run out of the room. I mean the one I gave yesterday was just a simple one compared to what I have to do, I still have to wait until I get my neuro-psych records until I give my current case manager her letter, due to her trying to un-diagnose me as something I was test ed for and dx'ed with (autism), so I told be awhile until I have to give her her letter, but my therapist wants me to start working on it this week, and idk how, even though it is only a rough draft. F***! So yeah that's how things are going for me, other thN all that, listening to music to distract myself, and going to go to bed soon, just tired today and idk why. Got my DBT group tomorrow afternoon, so yeah...