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Originally Posted by BudFox
To me that sounds just plain unhealthy and distressing. You get a tiny dose of the thing you crave, then are kept away for two weeks wherein you struggle alone with the feelings and impulses that were stirred up in the session. I also think your therapist's suggestion to value the time you do have indicates some level of ignorance about how these things tend to go. As the paid clinician she ought to make sure that she is first doing no harm, rather than feeding you some it's-better-than-nothing logic.
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I really agree with this, but feel trapped about what to do. My insurance coverage is expired until the new year when it kicks back in. Reduced-rate sessions are not something a brand new T would ever offer me. The current one only did it because we had an established rapport, and I assume she offered it to ensure that she retains me for when the funds do kick back in. She's already earned quite a bit from me through my insurance last year and this year. In a financial sense, I believe I am valuable to her. That being said, next year looks like it'll be pretty painful again because my coverage will only get me so far and the attachment feelings are new. I really hope I can get over them and be less dependent on her.
I do appreciate everyone's suggestions of how to cope in between, and trying to spin this as a positive. I just recently endured a big loss/crisis in the last couple of months that has me in higher distress these days. Perhaps time will heal and I will stop looking at therapy as such a critical and needed part of my life (I hope).