I am a sexual masochist since I was young. My wife saw heavy bruising on me recently and I confessed that I go to a Dominatrix every month for my fix. The wife asked me to go therapy. I found a sex therapist and explained how I have been like this since I was 12,how it started,how I like to caned,paddled until bleeding for the rush and sexual excitement. The therapist was nice but not very helpful and honestly seemed fascinated by the whole thing for her PH.D. paper. After three sessions I told the girl I wouldn't be going any longer as it was costly and I had zero desire to stop being beaten. The next day she emails me and tells me her supervisor would like me to come back to therapy and they would do it for free. I thought it was weird as I was paying $150 week and have a good job. I declined and she emailed me again asking me to reconsider. Makes me feel like a freak show. Is it normal for them to hound me about going like this ?