I'm sorry you are struggling. Hugs. I hope you feel better soon.

I've always felt alone to a certain extent for as long as I can remember. Even as a child. I also have a tendency to isolate myself, especially when I'm having an episode.

I've never really shared my innermost thoughts to people, even those closest to me. I often feel like they won't understand what I'm going through and I feel like a burden when I express how hard it is. I can be very needy too, I often think people are mad at me or that I annoy them. That keeps me from getting close to people a lot of the time.