Trigger warning: depressive post.

Anyone else out there lonely due to your mental illness? I scare people away on accident sometimes with my neediness and my tendency to talk too much about my problems.

I wish I could be around people all of the time. People who want to talk about deep stuff. People who can handle my s***. But those people don't exist.

I have to be so careful to be professional at work and with my work friends. I have to be so careful not to say too much or be too needy. I can't even tell my husband everything that goes through my head, because he will get overwhelmed. I wish I could just be real and authentically me. But then again, maybe not. Maybe I just wish I could not have a MI so I wouldn't feel this way in the first place.