I think I do it because I'm needy. Needy for acceptance for who I am. From my bf, family, friends, I get little understanding or sympathy. So right when I think I connect with someone I blab my mouth in hopes of a hug or a "I'm so sorry" but that's not what usually happens lol. I've actually ruined my reputation at jobs because of this. After my last job found out and fired me, I filed so SSI and going through the process now. I'll never forget the hurt I felt from being canned for my mood swings. I suffered with PTSD for awhile from the loss and feeling of rejection. The only place I fit in is here. With my friends. ((Hugs to all))