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Originally Posted by RxQueen875
I think I do it because I'm needy. Needy for acceptance for who I am. From my bf, family, friends, I get little understanding or sympathy. So right when I think I connect with someone I blab my mouth in hopes of a hug or a "I'm so sorry" but that's not what usually happens lol. I've actually ruined my reputation at jobs because of this. After my last job found out and fired me, I filed so SSI and going through the process now. I'll never forget the hurt I felt from being canned for my mood swings. I suffered with PTSD for awhile from the loss and feeling of rejection. The only place I fit in is here. With my friends. ((Hugs to all))
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I actually have the opposite problem. I am very firm in who I am (even if I don't share my feelings with people a lot) and I often alienate people because I am unapologetic about who I am. It's caused me problems at jobs before because even if I was good at my job I didn't ever fit in socially with my coworkers and I'm pretty horrible at adjusting who I am and how I present myself to others. I've always been labeled as weird or eccentric.
It's weird though because even thought I won't change my behavior or need reassurance in who I am I still want people to like me and will (for example) worry someone is mad at me if they don't respond to my text.
I hope that made sense.
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Bipolar I
Borderline Personality Disorder
ADHD
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
"You," he said, "are a terribly real thing in a terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why you are in so much pain.”
― Emilie Autumn, The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls
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