Thank you all, very grateful for.

I'm feeling totally different this evening and that mess of frustration and anxiety has passed. What a rollercoaster. I'm hoping the zyprexa addition and removal of risperdal will help. I just want to get stable, stay that way, and then I can get back to work. I miss working every day. Sometimes it hurts more than others. Today was one of those days.
Thanks for your support and listening to me.