No I didn't. It wasn't until I took a lot of tests in the hospital that came up bp I that made me accept it. Even then I struggled with it. But I've accepted it now.

Finally being on the right meds has made me finally accept it. I was put on Seroquel right out of the hospital. I felt zombiefied. I didn't know much about meds yet. I was too afraid to try a different ap, and didn't want to be on one to begin with. I tried a lot of different combos and had some not so good psych nurses and pdocs.

I finally got a really good psych nurse. I'm on the right meds. I'm finally stable without feeling zombiefied. I do miss hypos, but I don't miss deep dark depressions. I still get depressed but not as severely now. I can look back and see that yes I have bp. But that's just a part of me. Not all of me. I have finally accepted it.