So, I've been really thinking about friendships and who I can really trust and let into my world.
My friend who I spend the most time with lately doesn't know very much about my private life. She has no idea about the depth and intensity of my mental illness (she knows a little bit). She has no idea that I have some pagan and New Age beliefs that she would disapprove of. She has no idea that if i were to ever accidentally get pregnant, I would get an abortion due to the severity of my MI and having to get off meds for 9 months. She is VERY pro-life.
I recently was obsessing about this friendship, and I guess I'm still thinking about it, but not really obsessing. Now I just wonder how much I can tell her, how much I can trust her. We are coworkers. That might be a mistake to totally let her into my world. I also fear her rejecting me and then we end up having to keep seeing each other at work and have it be awkward.
So, who do you trust? People who only have the same belief systems and politics as you? Or do you just dive right in, without holding back? Do you take that risk with coworkers?
Thanks in advance for advice!
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Diagnoses: Bipolar 2, OCD, Chronic Worrywart

Meds: Lithium (reducing), Trileptal, Latuda, Risperdal, Klonopin and Xanax PRN