I was about to ask the same question. I cannot figure the answer for me. I know I "have" to do things, and I manage to do them just to keep thing rolling, like paying the bills, cleaning the apartment, calling family, ... etc, but I always have this feeling I "have" to do them, which is to say, I've never felt happy about doing them, which implies I don't do them well/right. The same goes for my job; I do the minimum to keep it (I'm not proud of it). Actually, I even don't have the energy to read things that might motivate me and change my mind. I even struggled to write this post until the end. My mind is so blank to think, my hands are so weak to write, my body is so heavy to move, and my soul is so cold to live.