I never had her email, or direct number, but do know she has a social media account which I won't invade, but it's hard not to have a look when it's a click away. The therapist iv just finnish with won't give anything away when I asked questions about her as it was deemed not helpful. It's difficult to get passed, and at times I'm thinking to myself how stupid and desperate iv become over someone I don't know, it's very conflicting to process this, non the less heart breaking.

Iv just got to live with it, what ever it is, it's hit me hard, and deep to my core like nothing else has ever in my life.