Today was bad. Half way through my shift at my second job I was thinking what's the point I want to die. I kept on saying in my head I want to die. I'm safe I'm not gonna self harm but I hate feeling this way. When are these Meds going to take effect. I feel I have been on a rollercoaster ride feeling neutral then low. I just want the pain to stop.
I want to live and experience life. I don't know exactly what I'm asking for, someone to listen or say something to cheer me up. I would like someone to motivate me to live instead of just living under my blanket.