These are real struggles. And I can relate to most of them.

It's possible to lose weight...because over the course of the year I lost almost 30 pounds. I know you can do it too. But the truth is, that your weight shouldn't define how much you love yourself. You're more than your waist size. Loving yourself is a difficult thing to master, especially when you have a mental disorder and a dysfunctional or abusive up bringing. While you're losing weight, try to focus on loving yourself too. What I did was write a letter to myself about my plans for weight loss and how I wanted to feel about myself. Then put the letter away somewhere. I actually found it recently and when I read it I actually cried because it was so encouraging and loving, and reminded me that losing weight was more about me liking myself than being that attractive skinny girl.