Welcome to PC. I wish I had answers for you but it is of such a personal nature. It sounds like you are going through such a hard time with him. You are definitely being very patient with him. You seem ambivalent to what you really want. To me that is what is important; what you want. Remember he comes with everything; the good and the bad. That you will have to contend with. Would he consider having his meds checked? Bipolar can be such a devastating illness in regards to relationships.

I guess I can only tell you to listen to yourself. It is hard when such strong feelings are involved. I am sorry that you so devastated with his behavior. I wish there were a clear cut answer other than is this how you would like to spend the rest of your life.

I hope that he will have his meds checked again as this may be the crux of the situation. I am sorry you have such a hard decision to make. Please take care of you.

BB