Just wanted to say hello to you all. I came across this site while creating my blog on PTSD. I do this in my spare time as I kind of feel some days it helps me, but today I feel very agitated and anxious.

Thought I would join and chat to others with similar problems as I have.

I was diagnosed with Bopolar, PTSD and anxiety disorder in 2001 after I was nearly beaten to death by a stranger in my home. Came to alberta in 2007 and the doctors up here think there is nothing wrong with me, so I am not getting the medical attention I need. I have used marijuana quite a bit, it is the only thing that relaxes me when I am upset, however I have had to quit this even though it is the only coping mechanism that works for me due to work.

I feel so alone bottled up inside my brain and dead most days. I need a friend or some friends that I am not terrified of and I am hoping you will be my friend, someone I can chat with and of course I will be your friend as well. Lean on me and I can lean on you sometimes. What do you think.

today is just not a great day for me, and I really wish i could just get drunk but it does not help only suppresses the pain