Another issue I'm working through is this:

I'm not sure if I'm someone who was molested by a stranger, and remembers everything (or remembers everything worth remembering about the incident, because what was forgotten was inconsequential)

or if I'm someone who remembers just the tip of the iceberg, and the reason I don't remember much about the next morning, is because something even worse happened, something I just don't want to remember.

It's even more complicated in that my memories of the first counselor I saw are clouded... and I do remember that she kept pestering me and suggesting that there was more (not just about that specific incident, but in general), in a way that even now I think is inappropriate, and that may have had more to do with her belief in repressed memories, than it did anything about me and my experiences. And I don't know if I had that reaction because I don't want to remember, or if I had that reaction because I don't appreciate the fact that people sometimes "help" others "recover" memories that were never there in the first place.