^what you say makes sense but the only problem is that i am still seen as a danger to myself. now i am NOT posting about suicidal intention [i know its not allowed-and in this case, not literal] but i did attempt in april which is where all this is coming from. so whenever i tell them something big or new they get that look and start casually suggesting another 'short' hospital stay. that, or talk about screwing with my meds again. im still in that beginning stage where im pretending im not bipolar. i just cant deal right now and that would make it worse. i guess right now im just being a whiney, self indulgent little girl who wants to talk herself out of/wish away her problems.
stuck between a rock and a hard place
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