Okay, I don't think this is yet major? Afterall, I recognize this is happening. My boyfriend has thus far been able to talk me down and talk sense into me. Still, I will admit I am not entirely convinced no one was out to deliberately hurt me.

I have the tendancy to jump to conclusions. Usually they are worse case scenarios. This has always been a problem. I've ruined relationships and jobs because of it. Only it usually happens quite sporadically - until this last month.

On several occassions events have unfolded where I truly believed people have been out to get me or hurt me deliberately. In one case my cousin was a real bonehead and I was hurt - only at the time I was convinced she'd set out to do so on purpose. I unfortunately reacted and I doubt she will ever talk to me again. In the case of my support group, for weeks now I have felt totally sure they are ganging up on me to exclude and hurt me. To the point I have been convinced they are talking about me behind my back and strategizing how to hurt me. On another matter I was turned over for a volunteer position and immediately jumped to the conclusion someone was secretly getting back at me. Once again I had a man talk agressively to me and I jumped to the conclusion he would kill me. There's been several other incidents too. Thank goodness the boyfriend was able to sit me down before I reacted in someway that would have caused a great deal of trouble for me.

The thing is, I'm pretty pretty sure I am not manic. Isn't that when delusions are supposed to occur?

I'm not so much looking for answers as struggling with this and feeling the need to share. Hopefully I am not the only one experiencing this.