I think I almost talked myself out of overreacting to my most recent episode.

There's one thing I'm terrified of: what if I never feel consistently "fulfilled", even after this emptiness passes? What if nothing ever truly feels "worth it", ever again, no matter what I do? What if I feel empty forever? What if I'm never capable of feeling accomplishment - not even out of any existential abstractions about meaning or purpose, but out of just not caring?

It's too much.