shakespeare47, that quote you posted is exactly my point. If that's how one is going to go through life, why bother living at all? If everything is pointless and doomed to failure, if everyone and everything is going to hurt you and fcuk you over all the time no matter what you do, why waste the effort?

If wanting to do or be anything is so evil, how is living even possible? If it's so wrong to want things, to aspire to anything because everyone hates you, you're so worthless you don't deserve anything, how is a person supposed to live?

From what I see, ego is the greatest gift people have. It's the core of selfness, the thing that pushes life and the world forward. Damn if I'm not allowed to have a piece of that, even if I innately lack it.