It's been building up for three weeks now. I am obsessing over ODing, and am starting to feel like I have no choice but to do it. I also sort of believe these thoughts are coming from an outside entity that has power over me (even though I can tell this sounds batty, I still believe it). I honestly can't tell if I am going to OD or not. Should I go IP just to be safe, or should I try and survive on the outside?