I've only known you a few months. I agree with the others. You know yourself really well. My impression of you is of someone who stuggles, but works through things and is competent, but doesn't know it yet. Perhaps you still see yourself as you used to be instead of seeing yourself as you are now. There is so much good work evident in your post.

It may be that you've used up this theapist and gotten everything there is to get from her. Apparently this can happen - my T mentioned it to me, that sometimes you can only go so far with a particular person. Sounds like your T has an agenda for you and expectations that she hasn't shared instead of you two coming to a goal together. What would you define as progress? Do you feel your T is still helping you to progress? From what you've written you've done a lot for yourself with T's support. I think it's a good sign that you are self-directed and have actively worked to change your life even before coming to this T. What would you do as a next step for you if you were the therapist?

Keep up the good work - you're on a good trajectory!