yes....i understand. i used to think it was 'just' social anxiety that made interacting with people so difficult...i didn't realize it was triggers and other things for a long time.

it is exhausting and sad that things have to done certain ways just to be safe. i have found sometimes the inner and outer worlds collide, and in order to do things in the outer world, rules get broken in the inner world to do so...and it creates so much havoc. it is confusing and difficult....always a balancing act it seems. sometimes you cannot abide by the rules of any world because they differ from each other.