This is wonderful alex!! i am happy to hear such delicate optimism in your words. i am so pleased he is giving you what you need now.

my T once mentioned "support" like it was a dirty word and i called him on it... and how i phrased it was this: don't you think that maybe dealing with the more emotional stuff allows me to clear the path so i can actually do the other stuff you want me to do?

i think they try to be flexible and open, but they get comfy in doing things a certain way... until one of us comes along who make them uncomfortable again. You think/operate differently than he is used to and he needed to adjust just like mine did. Once he did things got more productive right away and it sounds like this is true for you too.

i am sorry you have trouble interracting and accepting yourself. i understand that too well myself. i have often wondered if i had some strange sort of autism. The hopefulness i hear now from you tickles me. You should be so proud of yourself!

and alex... i have as many "special" moments online as anyone, trust me... but it makes me sad to hear you talk... i would miss you.. i do miss you. Come and chat soon