May I ask, what would be the worst thing that could happen if they found out your secret? I did read that you might think you are nuts...got that, but really, many people think that the isolationist who refuses to socialize more than they absolutely have to is nuts anyway.
I wrote a post on another forum recently that speaks to this issue and though it speaks to my experience rather than yours, I'm thinking that there is sufficient similarities to just cut and paste - so here we go:
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Not certain how to broach this subject. Not even sure what the point is actually. What I do know is that I handle this quite differently than most anyone I have come in contact with on a dissociative forum and I find that curious...so I want to talk about it.
I'm a six foot tall, 240 pound man. Though I prefer solitude, people want to be around me - I act like an extrovert when I've got to be around people and almost always have a joke or smart aleck comment - quite often at my own expense. More importantly, I believe, I exude confidence. So, since this isn't a dating website and I'm a happily married guy, why am I putting this out there? Good question and here we go...
The last job I had, everyone knew my alter. Don't care and don't try to hide her. Music on pandora all day every day and it's my turn? Disney channel please.
"Are you serious?"
"Yep."
"But...wth?"
"I have DID aka Multiple Personality Disorder. I have a six year old alter. She wants Disney, she's getting Disney."
~blank stares~
Later the conversation returns. Were you serious about that?
Smiling...yep. Hey look, I know it's probably weird to you - it's normal to us though.
I don't hide it nor do I make a big deal out of it.
Anyway, I'm not shy about it - particularly if I'm going to be seeing these people every day. I'm unapologetic - we get our work done and do it awesomely. In fact, while at my last job I landed in the hospital and she got more cards from co-workers than I did...not to mention crayons, stickers and coloring books. I received a bonus at the end of the year with my last check from there and while every supervisor got a bonus added onto their paycheck - I got two envelopes: One with my name on it and my check inside and another envelope with her name on it and cash inside because they knew she couldn't cash a check. Joke was, I didn't deserve a bonus but she did. 
Anyway, I've read a lot of posts over a lot of years where people try so hard to keep this secret. Though only recently diagnosed, I've known for twenty-four years...and have found that when shared confidently, no one ever responds negatively. Ever. On the other hand, I'm a big guy...maybe they're just scared. I'm all about peace love and happiness but yeah, you don't get to mistreat or bad mouth people I love around me and she's at the top of the list of people I love. I think maybe people intuitively understand that.
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