EDEN I read your stuff but don't respond often. You're not a nucince. I've felt that way on this board too. Please don't make that scare you away. You'd be missed and worried about. We all want everyone to be well on here and most of us use medication to be healthy. If meds aren't helping or you're not going to take them that's your choice but know you've already been marked as mentally ill and could have to go back to the hospital without meds.