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Originally Posted by Shy Introvert
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Thanks, I know. She'll be lost when they die I'm sure. If I don't have to work on Fridays, but I WILL if I get hired at one place, then I'm going to that free therapy place for sure. The depression and anxiety classes are only on Fridays from 1-2p.m.
I can look into similar groups like women's groups I suppose. My sociopath sister would never ever post on here. Sociopaths think that there is nothing wrong with them and there is NO cure for them at all from what I read. Same with N people.
I hate having to try so hard just to get by and it sucks that I'm rarely ever happy! It also sucks that I'm the one who is usually doing most of the work in having to find and keep friends. I'm always tired, sore, sad, and just feel bad in general most of the time and it seems like no med can fix me. I wish that I could just be one of those happy go lucky people who everyone loves, but I'm the polar opposite of that.
I have bad genes. My grandpa committed suicide by drinking poison a long time ago before I was born. There is no hope for me at times it seems like. I know other people are worse off, but I won't lie about how I feel.
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I have thoughts that I have it in my genes, too. Plenty of family history. As far as I know there's no scientific proof of this. I hate to think this. I hope you don't get anybody Triggered by this.
My FIL said I had bad DNA because people in my family were divorced! To him, that was enough to judge me, he wasn't even talking about the suicides.
My two cents may help as a different way of looking at things. My mother made it clear that I was not to even think she would ever support any of us kids after school age. Thankfully, I never had to ask for money because I married a man that could support me, like she insisted I do. Actually we ended up giving her money. She'd say go work three jobs, both you and your h, and don't dare ask your parents.