I've always had the problem where almost anything that helps my depression ends up being intolerable because of how it affects my anxiety. I always kind of "envy" people who just have to deal with one or the other, I know if I didn't have anxiety, just throwing in some stimulating meds would help my depression and fatigue. They just make my anxiety worse of course, which is enough of an issue, but then my anxiety being bad actually makes me more depressed too.

Even though I quit it for some other reasons, it seems like Emsam was going to help my depression in some ways. It felt pro-social, too, but it was almost like though it made me want to do things, it also made my anxiety worse (which sucked and made it harder/almost impossible to do things), so that depressed me more. I thought I'd try very low doses of selegiline (the med in Emsam), and tried that today. I felt noticeably more awake and a bit positive in the morning, while just at home before I actually had to do anything. Then when it got further into the day and I was faced with the prospect of having to face people and anxiety-provoking things, it all went downhill. I remembered, like I always do, why meds like this don't end up working out for me in reality.

Nardil worked on both somewhat, but it's not an option for me anymore. Years ago Prozac helped me a little but was a little too stimulating, though on a bearable level. Lamictal helps my depression and anxiety a bit, though not enough. I think part of the way lamictal helps is by helping me be a little calmly indifferent, which helps me just settle with things like the fact that I'm not really better.

It seems like I'm pretty much always just going to have to settle, being depressed but at least being more able to keep my anxiety in check at a somewhat bearable level. My anxiety, though still pretty bad, used to be quite a bit worse for the most part, so I guess it's kind of like, "hey, I lack a huge amount of motivation and drive and am not really happy, but I can go to stores without panicking and don't have 100% horrible anxiety attacks around people, so I'm scared to rock the boat."

Anyone else deal with this? I know it's a pretty common problem, I guess I just kinda wanted to complain and see if anyone else wanted to, too. Or, has anyone had this problem and found particular meds or anything that seem to help?