Eden, I too struggle with my dx. I spent several weeks this summer communicating with angels and demons, while at the time it was seemingly normal too me. I realize now that it was psychosis in conjunction with mania. I do maintain beliefs in my mind control ability even when not manic, but I understand that most people think that just means I am still sick. this is a struggle for me, I believe and do have these abilities. I have a strong belief in the paranormal.
I think that your problems stem from you having some of these beliefs, and i think that you have a hard time articulating these beliefs. this may be what is causing your frustration. Keep posting, you are getting support, you just have to listen to what resonates with you and filter out what does not.