Thanks everyone. I just got up, going to work soon, and I am exhausted and very upset. Hopefully I can settle into work and forget about things for a while. So much anger, despair, sense of injustice and hopelessness. Don't know how I am going to be able to switch it off at work but I will try. Still overwhelmed. Will contact my T tomorrow(Monday) if I can't cope. At the moment I am holding it together by a thread.