I really think you should just try an AP.

I had no idea I was delusional until I went on one. I remember when I went on geodon. After only a week of being on it it felt like my entire version of reality was just shattering. It was really disconcerting.

Anyway, so I'm not saying that you are delusional, just that you should try an AP and see what happens. You'll probably be surprised.