allautumn,

you and my mother sounds exactly alike with this. my mother would "see" him places when he lived in another state. she had to quit going to church because there was someone there that resembled him and she couldn't sit thru a service. not only did she "see" him, she would "hear" his voice and have horrible flashbacks.

my father was a horrible person. we all have PTSD due to him.

what has helped my mother is therapy...lots of it. what helped me with my PTSD was one thing. he'd been trying to contact me and saying he was old and sick. finally, i had my husband (big and strong to me) to see him for two hours. it was the best thing i could have done. to see him as he is "today" was very empowering for me. he was no longer that strong, mean marine. his voice was the same yes, but he was old (way older than his years due to alcoholism), and he was weak, shaky and sick. my PTSD about him is all but gone, unless i go into a deep memory or something.

i hope and pray it doesn't take that long for you. it didn't take as long for my mother...she got into a good therapist. i pray for you that you can get to a good therapist that deals with trauma and PTSD. it will help you so much i think. you sound just like my mom and it was very hard for her, but was the best thing she'd ever done for herself.

i will be thinking of you and praying for you. please let me know...

be safe,

kimmydawn