Douglas everything you described sounds just like about three weeks ago. It ended up with me being put in the hospital for three days. I started meds and Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (You feel what you think) Great program for me I was able to break down why I felt the way I did. I am still separated from my wife but I feel so much better. I feel awake again like I did so many years ago. Nothing really bothers me. All I can tell you is DO NOT be afraid to ask for help. There is no shame or guilt in the way you feel you just need someone's help.

Peace
Chad