Sent a text to my T. Haven't heard back yet but I know he will be working. Called in sick to work again. The panic, fear and rage are too strong to be put under pressure. Talked to a friend last night. He was very supportive. My parents are being great too so I am not alone. And I have you guys! This support helps so much. My mind gets away from me, driven by negative emotions towards destruction. the support helps me use my rational mind and stay safe.