Been home for two days now. I can't stay awake for more than 3 hours at a time. I feel so much worse than when I went into the hospital. While there I first rapid cycled then fell into a really deep depression for two weeks. I thought I had come out of it and was stable enough to leave. But now I am feeling very depressed again, crying every night and have thoughts of suicide and self harm again. I really wish I had never gone to the hospital. I am just trying to hold out until I see my T on Wednesday.