It's NOT normal, and I think you know it or you wouldn't ask.

I hope you will start listening when so many people here tell you that you're not doing well and you need help. It almost seems like you're making these posts for attention rather than for advice, and that you don't intend to do anything that's been recommended. You have demonstrated that you lack insight into the severity of your current episode and it scares us! Please, please, PLEASE pay attention to what we're saying to you---we're not trying to spoil your fun or ruin your life.