I am not asking my questions for attention! This one i asked because i literally have the thought every 5 seconds so it does feel normal to me and it probably is the ocd as someone else suggested. So thanks to that person. And i did take peoples advice yesterday when i spent 3 hours reading about bipolar after it was suggested the ONLY suggestion i dont take is the take your meds one everything else i try so dont even start to make assumptions about my motives when you dont know me. If you dont want to deal with me then dont read or answer my threads no one is forcing you to do that.