Thank you both. I guess a good night's sleep wasn't in order...I just got some. I did wake up feeling much better but that didn't last. My 8 year old is here so I am trying everything not to scare her to death. I started checking my mail over and over again instead of pacing. Since she was in the other room, it worked. I talked to my mom again sand she told me to take another klonapin and take a walk. I did and admittedly felt better. Didn't last long. My pdoc called me back she's adding Seroquel for now and probably another mood stabilizer, probably depacote (boo). She said the Seroquel should work by the end of the week and that at that time I can slow back down on the Klonapin. She told me I can take as much of that as I need but not to exceed 4 MG. I hope the landing is soft too. I won't survive another of those depressions and even if I do, my marriage certainly won't survive.