Thanks ((((( hugs )))))) this is probably in the wrong forum, I've been wrongly dxd with a few things, not bipolar... So maybe that is exactly what I do have ... I don't trust the doctors in this jungle, they are full of ****

Btw the mothers neighbour (a different neighbour) a daughter (a few years older, I think we would have had a lot in common if I hadn't been scapegoated as the demon child and evicted)...who was dxd with bipolar, she was "worthy" as she had that dx... But my panic attacks etc since childhood were just dismissed. They were and are debilitating... Also my mood swings (and su. Ideation )

I hope none of those are "following" my posts but I no longer care, they can think what they like (their opinions are none of my business..)