I honestly don't see anything wrong with not wanting to be touched in a sexual way unless you feel safe and close with somebody. As far as the vaginal sex goes maybe you had a troubling experience and you are afraid. What if you had an understanding boyfriend who didn't rush you ? I bet that would help you feel more secure. I would also go talk to the sex therapist about it. I don't think it could hurt the situation. I wish I would have sought help when I was young for my sexual masochism. Maybe I could have had a normal sex life ? Maybe you could if you talk to a specialist about the issue. Best of luck.