I have words that sabotage, too. WAY too many of them to name. Like Emmers, mine are generally not very subtle. My favorite thing in the whole world seems to be to call myself "melodramatic" every time I acknowledge my pain, my problems, or my history. If I tell somebody that I hurt, I automatically tell myself inside that I have no right or reason to, and that I'm just trying to get attention or that I feed off of being a victim. My therapist says I'm actually quite the opposite of what I think of myself. I see myself as constantly complaining and whining. She basically tells me it's like pulling teeth to get me to say I really have hurt feelings and a reason to have them. Anyway...

I tell myself I am a drain on the Universe basically, too. Any and every time someone gives to me- even just kind words, I automatically feel like I should have guilt for that. I tell myself all kinds of bad things about me.

Ugh!